. . . the*Days

Ytd he told me a bad news that he will turn to normal shift,that means i can't see him on mon to friday le,and sat & sun i can't out of house... -_-!!
no more days for us to meet le.........
tian yi??
Few times ago he asked me abt that,i refused,i felt sorry to him but still refuse. i know currently e world v open,and his friends all have ** with their bf or gf,he asks me y i can't? i hug him and i apologize,although he says nvm coz he doesn't mind it,i know he suffers...
How should i solv this qn? different view ba... i know im right to say no,but he also nothing wrong to ask 4 natural requirement..
sumtimes i thinnk myself i with him one yr le....my fren and her bf alr did when they together in 3 mmonths only... den y i must follow e old rules from old society ??
i ask myself again and again, and try to change my mind, but in e end i still unable to convince myself . im sorry to him but my conculusion is i must respect my husband who marry me in e future no matter what.

Usually i would like to joke him abt *** all the time,i looks v bad and 'yellow' but actually i juz dare to talk but nothing in active.i thought he knows me that im a person who still with a conservative view and he accepts it already.

however i suddenly realise that he's suffer all e time,im so sorry to him. so sorry~　ｉ　ｓｗｅａｒ　ｉ　ｗｏｎ＇ｔ　ｊｏｋｅ　ｔｔ　ｒｅｌｅｖａｎｔ　ｔｈｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｈｉｍ　ａｎｙｍｏｒｅ！！

feeling good at that moment...
but i found i start to rely on him after that...
i will become dependence....
maybe i will miss him every day when he is not my side......
i scare tt.......
those kind of things can't be happen.......

im sure he will leave me one day,
or may soon....
so,how could i rely on him so much?
he said he can feel tt both of us turn to closer once we meet that day.
Sticky......
It's dangerous!
I scare....
i really afraid of caring him......
i know he does.

I worry about i will hate him one day ifi fall in love with him seriously.

Meet him in e early morning...
he looked like v tired...
he said tt coz he watched movie until 3am ytd night...
i scolded him tt he doesn't respect our date,he hold my hand and apologized.
i dislike he affact his daytime juz becoz overnight...
but...
he's audlt and im not his mother...he should know it how could i keep on nagging him?
Why i love him?why he loves me? it's hard to explain...
so far we still control ourselves and keep distance between both so that when something happen we can leave each other immedatielly. but why we don't stop right now?
it's becaus,we feel lonely without each other!
loneliness is able to kill an elephan.

He called me today,but i didn't notice...den when i saw his miss call in hp,i didn't call back immediatelly coz i thought he was busy...
Can't image what will he say to me tmr?
after i reach home,my grandma told me he called my house number too...i guess maybe he start angry le... What e hell..like real like that.............

He even no time to accompany me simply sit down & chat...
I feel so piss off...
I understand his job needs him and it makes him busy but i also need him,once he starts his work,he would almost forget to sms me or reply my msg...
i miss him every moment,but it makes me looks like V stupid...He even feels its troublesome sometimes...i can feel It...he starts to avoid me...E more number of msg i sms him,the longer time he delay to replay me...

So piss off...

He called me juz now,my voice become v cold when i talk to him. He asked me what's up,i said nth. He apologized to me said tt he really busy and really tired on work as well but not coz he avoid me...
well,I understand and i worry abt his health too...but...i juz duno how to forgive him...HOW?? We have moree than 2 weeks didn't meet each other alr...and he can't pick up hp during workin hours in day and i can't talk on phone when i at home in night coz my parent not allow. Due to these reasons,can u image how short hr we can talk per day?

Sometimes i would wonder whether i really have him anot...
-_=! what a tough question!

Mum v angry for im on phone for long time talking with him....but we juz spend around 20 mins onli. She nervous to any guy who talk with me...she warn me dunt let her catch i chat with him again otherwise she will go find him and ask he leaves me... i almossst feel duffocating becoz of her behavior.
im old enough to settle my own life,i have righ to make a friend who i love even if she doesn't like anyhow...
Mum ask me whether i steady with him now,i don't want to lie her but i scare after she knows tt it's true she will cut off phone line inculde my handphone so i keep on slience.... Im tired of hiding, tried of hurting him and myself.... i wanna break up,but he said it's much painful for him....
and,i know. me too.
.............speechless..

i saw karen in bedok today, 17,7,2006.

Bump into Karen n Jas in Bedok at around 8pm today.(Monday)

i saw karen in bedok today, 17,7,2006.

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Today went Changi Beach Club with Jan,Joan and Charmain since Jan is a Membership there. Her dad drove us to club,we supposed to study and stay till sunset,but den the weather became v windy and comfortable after it rained lk dogz and catz around 3pm (CATZ AND DOGZ??)..which made us unable to keep studying anymore. so we gave up and went to beach look for birds and fishes. haha. Rubbish Nonsense! haha. Anyway,ending we really learnt finish 1 chpt only and played all the way till on the bus.
N i enjoy today v much! great mood with them. haha. =D. The most happy thing is i start to know abt Joanne,jan and charmian more. They're wonderful lol,energy! Today i found i love Joa so much! Oh! haha. I always thought she's a crazy woman who dyed a hair with red and blue since last yr we met,playful and active. but now i finally find im wrong before ,coz she's more playful and active plus talkative i expected. and she has a side of sentimental as well. Actually she 's quite friendly and cute lol and would think of other's feeling,same as Jan,v wonderful one . Haha. N Everyone have many side lol. haha.

Don't know it's a good or bad point 4 me, i once determinded to pass ite life of 2 years along till this year... Don't know why and forgot till when i start to have conversation with others and den i start to realise all of my classmates who are friends now.and find i like their charater actually. It seems a good point but it also means maybe when we gradurate and have to seperate,i will experience few bad weeks to accept reality again.....Making....losing.....making again..losing again..................WOLAO.......+_=!!! .Forget it. At least Once we spent happy moments together,once a friendz,juz enough!

Nominated by my CA to attend project group. Quite a good project it's! Heard Ms zhao we can get paid by outside Company when we do project in school. That means i can work and study at the same time. $$$.. hahaha.

Project training should be on every friday and during sch holiday we have to come training as well. Junior said after we really decide to join it, traveling time will usually end by 9pm every day when it's busy. Hehe. *sleepy* but don't know why deep inside i v long to start this project as soon as possible becasue it seems will be e most funny and wonderful project i ever take.. Hope i can find a good parternet who enjoy this project too! . Haha.

Find i really love 'forever love',which song by Xjapan,sO much.
The more i listen it,the more i love it.
Forever Love (Xjapan)

Miss those part of memories so..

Bu De Bu Ai

DRAW BY JAN 2005
DRAW BY 2004 DRAW BY K

Done by 13/April/2003

I may leave here, since i suddenly don't know the meaning in keep writing... I never give up till yesterday,i felt my hope of seeing her no longer be here forever.. it becomes empty forever. i used to think tt it will provide a good way for ppl who care about me to know more about me, but i slowly to understand in fact if you really care a ppl, you can know about her v well in any way, more intimate and more private,ad still, more accurate but not like now tt seems i force you to read what i wrote all the time. We can email, we can write to each other, we can even call other's number, since as long as we are close enough to share things about life, we must have known one of those ways to contact with.

Anyway. you know what to do, when you really think of me. i don't wanna it to be a duty or something to read my blog. i would be very glad to reply to your emails. just contact me in a better way, blog may not be the best choice now. it's one-way, public, and somewhat cold aloof...

anyway, thank you all for visiting or having visited my blog, your visits and comments have supported me through all these years. but now, let's enter a new phase of knowing each other.

kiss-goodbye my space, my dear friends...

best wishes to you GUYZ all...

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Easy ways to increase your consumption of lycopene:

• Start your meal with a cup of tomato soup. Add some fresh basil for a gourmet taste.
• When making your own spaghetti sauce, add tomato paste and a little olive oil.
• For a refreshing snack, drink a glass of reduced sodium tomato or vegetable juice.
• Top omelets, chicken breasts, pork chops and baked potatoes with salsa.
• Look for cut-up watermelon in the produce department and at the salad bar.

Even if you buy expensive skin care products they won't be as effective in helping you achieve healthy skin without help from your diet. Remember to eat correct Way to Healthy Skin This Summer!

• Water is extremely important to having good skin health. Make sure you are constantly hydrated during the hot summer months! Make sure to drink a glass of water before any heavy exercise or before stepping out into hot weather.
  
• Fish contains oils that will help nourish your skin. Eat a dish of salmon or other fish rich in fish oils to add shine and softness to your complexion.
  
• Ground flaxseeds are an excellent source of omega-3 fatty acids, which promote good skin health. You can sprinkle ground flaxseeds on cereal, salads, desserts, or casseroles.
  Vitamin A is essential for healthy skin. We recommend plenty of dark orange (carrots, sweet potatoes) and dark green (broccoli, spinach, kale) vegetables - all of which are high in vitamin A.
  
• Healthy skin also needs the B vitamins found in whole grains, milk and wheat germ to keep your skin balanced and moisturized.
  
• Vitamin C helps build collagen, which help support the tissues of our body. A lack of vitamin C can cause bruising, loss of skin strength and elasticity, and poor healing of cuts and scrapes. A bowl of strawberries or a tall glass of orange juice can supply all the vitamin C you require.
  
• Vitamin E helps promote good-looking skin, which is why we recommend nuts such as hazelnuts and almonds - which are high in vitamin E - as snacks.

• Aside from a proper diet, we recommend exercise as a good way to help you keep your skin looking fresh and young.

I finally realise what did mum say is extremly correct. In Singapore,a country which there is no season to exchange,it is really too hot so that people's skin are easier than in other countries to become older than their age. SO In order to prevert this terrible thing happen too fast before 30, i made my mind to control my health as good as possible .

+ Drink a cup of water with salt early in the morning everyday...
+ Drink 'hot green tea' or '24 cooling tea' as a refreshing and healthy alternative to soft drinks per day...
+ Get enough sleep...and don't overnight too often in case there is black eye socket below eyes...
+ No chocolate,no sweet, and away from fastfood...
and....... and so on lol....

To be continue........

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Age : 31
D.O.B : 03/05/1986
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